My First Mother's Day
My last blog post was four months ago and a ton has changed. We welcomed our sweet girl, Ellington Jane, into the world on January 11, 2016 at 6:28pm. We chose to be induced a week early at 39 weeks and I wouldn't change a thing about her birth. We got to the hospital at 7:30 that morning and things progressed smoothly until I asked for an epidural around 12:30. An hour later as the needle was going in I moved slightly and believe the anesthesiologist inserted the needle into a blood vessel. My heart rate wouldn't come down and I felt extremely light headed. So they decided to do the epidural over again which was miserable but I was so thankful for the pain of the contractions to subside. Around 5:30 or so the nurse came to check on me and do a test push and I was ready! Four contractions later, our sweet girl entered the world weighing 7 pounds, 8 ounces and was 17 3/4 inches long.
Our lives have forever been changed and I'm still adjusting three months later. I never imagined being a mom until I met Ronnie so I didn't really daydream about the day I would become one. The challenges that came in that first month were nothing I could have planned for or read enough books about but through constant prayer, Gods grace, my husband and amazing family, we've survived! Ellington is a blessing and her smile and sweet disposition makes my day brighter.
As Mother's Day comes up this weekend, I wanted to reflect on all that I've learned and experienced these past 3, almost 4 months.
-I've learned that loving Ellington is a choice I make daily. I choose to love her more than I love myself and my own comfort.
- I've learned that selfishness is no longer an option now that I am a mother. Putting Ellington's needs before my own, especially when it comes to sleep has been the most challenging.
-I love sleep, comfort and rest; I am thankful that she is sleeping through the night now but I've learned to hold on to sleep loosely instead of idolizing it as I've done before. My body has also adjusted to less sleep which helps, along with lots of coffee!
-I've chosen to stay home with her instead of go back to work. This has been another learning curve. I feel like I don't know who this new Dannie is at times. I'm learning about Ellington's needs and personality just as I'm learning about who I am now with her. I know this season is not forever and I'm praying for contentment with her. She makes me a better person as we grow together.
Ellie will be 4 months old on May 11th. She is such a happy baby and always smiling at us. We're still working on rolling over and holding her head up with tummy time. She has severe acid reflux which is heartbreaking to watch but after each episode and some crying, she usually is all smiles. She loves to watch her Daddy play guitar and make up songs to sing to her. She loves bath time and napping on her Mama. I wouldn't trade her for the world or any amount of sleep :), she's our favorite!
Happy Mother's Day to all the mom's out there, you're all superheroes!!